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Sunday, 13 September 2009
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Happy Birthday Tigger..
My niece & nephew had a cat birthday party today. Looks like they had fun too..
My day seemed so full today. I was on my way to church & I heard screaming. It sounded like my nephew. I was near my brother's so I went round to investigate. I was right, he had fallen & needed to go to the hospital. He was screaming because he didn't want to go to hospital. I stayed with my niece as it took both of them to get him in the car let alone the hospital. He has as-purges so he reacts with tantrums. He just wanted to go to sleep, hence the tantrum etc. Luckily he didn't need stitches. He has grazes & cuts covering half of his back. My niece gets upset as she fears for him.
I got my niece to help me tidy up & get ready for the afternoon. We had to call their friends & adjourn for a few hours.
Finally got to church, then went visiting & looked after Aaron for couple of hours. Finally got home about ten pm..
Yesterday Debbie asked to come over with Arriana. I was sat quilting & I just can't say no. Al came for tea. I was ready for bed when they had gone . I had planned a quiet weekend, just me ,thread & couple of needles. Never mind, will take some time to myself tomorrow & tuesday..
I have got the quilting bug..
These are my projects that I plan to do in the not too distant future.
My bed quilt is a must as I want it for winter. Most of the squares are hand sewn. I am going to cheat & put it together by machine. I just had this idea of hand sewn one. I wanted to bring a Amish one back from Michigan, they are expensive, though worth the cost. I figured I could do one myself. It is so satisfying doing my own too..
Will put a picture up when it's finished..
Nite nite & may God bless you xx
Tuesday, 08 September 2009
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My niece & nephew went back to school on monday. They look sooo grown up in their new uniforms. I am picking them up today & tomorrow after school. They are still at the huggy stage. Can never get enough of them. Aw bless..
I luv cats sooo much. I would luv another one. Dylan would flip though, spoiled brat. I luv abyssinians & siamese as they are so sleek & slinky & vocal & intelligent. Dylan is too, he knocks on the door when he wants to come in.First time he did it I thought someone was at the door. He does some crazy things, like waking me up for breakfast. He walks all over me until I get up. Only will eat Iams. Still teases the dog & eats her food.Likes water from the bathroom sink tap, though he drinks dirty water outside. Luvs to bring moths in, boy do I hate them. At least he has stopped catching butterflies.
Thursday, 03 September 2009
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I am about to do something that is going to be painful & hard for me. It seems easier to share & ask for support now. Airing this on xanga is easy, no faces. I don't want sympathy, empathy & prayer is all I need.The Lord has I feel spoken to me. I need to stop running away form the nightmare. I feel that he is with me in this decision to move forward & deal with this issue. I am in a better state of mind & have support from my brother.
I had a baby adopted when I was 18. I have decided to try to find him. I have thought about it so many times over the years. I thought I was doing the right thing at the time. To inflict a child on a young mother with no support & a victim of sexual abuse would have been hard on both parties. I am stronger than that teenager I was all those years ago & "papa" knows that too. Reading a book recently called "The Shack" helped me a lot.
I know that adoption searching has it's pitfalls. If I find my son, I know he could reject me. I changed my mind so many times as I thought I wouldn't be up to it. I always said that it would be the final nail if he rejected me. Not knowing is more painful. Closure for both of us would be a good thing.
One of the worst things to live with is that it has been pushed under the carpet in my family for so long. My mum always says I blame her. The truth is I don't blame anyone. I forgave my family years ago.
I can't go through life with such pain in my heart. I know that when I became a christian, the hole in my chest healed. God did His best, but the pain is still there. I don't blame God. He has healed me so much over the years. He brought me through all the abuse. Without His divine intervention I would not be here. He saved me from a lot of pain & helped me to deal with my past.
This writing is most helpful. Thanku for reading this. I am positive & would welcome prayer support..
Thanku to my xanga friends & May God bless you..
Sunday, 30 August 2009
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I was saddened, yet encouraged today. Her honesty was painful ,yet honest. The fairy is for you Peace..
Fear is a prison that holds us captive. I am still gripped by it at times. Baring all is painful, yet liberating. We forgive, move forward yet we can't forget. I was imprisoned for years by fear. I always smiled, yet a smile never quite reaches the heart..
Faith freed me from my demons, broke the bondage that held me captive..
I am not able to write much at the moment as my hands are painful. my right is the worst. Pray would be gratefully recieved.. Thanku xx
Saturday, 29 August 2009
Tuesday, 25 August 2009
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Weekend was ok..
Got my niece & nephew here for a sleepover. Watched Aliens in the attic together, kids luved it..
Thought I might show some of my fave pics of my dear ones. Here goes..
Here is my niece & suberbrat aka Dylan..
He is sooo spoiled. He luvs my dog though..
This is my nephew with ketchup,he luvs the stuff..
My little cook. Aw she is really sweet..
My mum & my youngest nephew. 14 mths now..
This is tabby,a kittenI recently fostered. Superbrat would not be nice. She found a lovely new couple to live with..
This is snow,8mths. I rehomed her twice. Second one was the one, she is happy now. Superbrat would not be nice to her too. I soooo wanted to keep her, but Dylan had other ideas..
Pippi, she is a treasure. Rescued her 5yrs & 6mths ago . So well behaved & faithful..
These dogs are another rescue success. I met them about 4mths ago, whilst out in the countryside. Greyhounds are lovely dogs. Most people are wary of them as they are big dogs. They need little excercise & are very placid & faithful. Pippi is a sighthound (half greyhound & half whippet..
This is one of my favourite pics, sweet huh ?
OK time for early nite. Kids still awake & I need to set an example..
Saturday, 22 August 2009
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I am hoping to bath my cat, he's white & covered in dirty patches.. 1st time for everything, scared, more scared than him. Last experience with a bath & a cat was when one fell in my bath that I had plans to relax in. Just when to get my towels when I heard a Yeeeeooooooow. Poor thing was terrified. Shook me up too.. Hope u all have a nice weekend. Thanku for your prayers & kind thoughts & dropping by... Byeeeee
Thursday, 20 August 2009
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I am happy to say that Ladies curry nite was a huge success. It is a good opportunity to spend time with Muslims on a comfortable basis. Gone are the times when we had to host in our own homes. Now it is happily shared & hosted in our ladies homes. Our prayer of thanks are spoken in Urdu. I know that just by sharing prayer & eating together once a month is a blessing. My Sisters in Christ have wonderful relationships with these women who are trapped in Islaam laws. They share there lives & hearts with us. They often ask for prayer & there are times when they pray with us. Laughter & tears build these loving relationships..
I am so happy that I am under grace. God walks with me each & every day, I never cease to be grateful to my wonderful Father..
We are all God's children. Regardless of Faith or Race..
The Lamb of God came to save us..
He died for us..
No tomb could hold Him..
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He is the Good Shepherd who came to lead us back..
He ascended into Heaven to take His place at Our Father's feet to wait for us there..
The Gospel is a true story that we can rely on each & every day of our lives, to guide us to that Holy place where we will see His face which will shine on us for all eternity..
I am reading & lovin this book. If you haven't read I recomend you do. I am on chapter 10. I have seen God in a new light, more human somehow..
Friday, 07 August 2009
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Counting my Blessings..
Yesterday was my birthday. I had a lovely time ,blessed by my family ( mum, brothers away or comin at weekend) & extended family & friends..
We had a bbq ,played games, hung out, chatted, laughed. What more could I have asked for , I was & am blessed with good people around me..
I used to lie & deny my age ( 46 candles ). Now I embrace it & give thanks that the Good Lord blessed me with another year. My life is full. Yes it has it's ups & downs, highs & lows. I may not have a partner now but, I don't have time to be lonely as I am never alone. If I am home alone, then
I am blessed by my heavenly Father.
He knows my needs & fulfills the ones that He knows I need. I had gifts of course but, having people around me that I love & am loved by is more precious. Having Jesus as my Lord & saviour is the greatest gift of all..
I was reminded tonight by 2 of my christian brothers & sisters that we don't need to have earthly things around us to make us complete. They are going to Iraq for 2 years & have had to give away most of their personal possessions.(They are trusting God & are going as missionaries.) It reminded me that we have so much clutter in our lives that we don't need or have room for. Hanging on to those material possessions will not make us feel better, they just clutter our lives. The possessions we cherish are nice & give us pleasure, yet they don't or can't add another minute, hour , day, week, month or year to our lives. Yet we still yearn for them, buy them or have them gifted to us.
Don't get me wrong , I am grateful for the gifts I was kindly given.
But I am no fool, the greatest gift is life, only God can give us that life & life's extra pieces that He gives/allows us are bonuses.
I want to spend the next year being grateful for the gifts & time that He blesses me with..
So I count my Blessings & say "Thanks Lord."
Goodnite & God bless xx
ps.. Please add Samuel & Fiona to your prayers
Wednesday, 15 July 2009
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THANKYOU FOR YOUR PRAYERS..
I have been up & down recently, not depressed just fed up of being ill. I know that but for my faith I would not be coping at all. My ministry is so important to me as is doing my many crafts I like to do when I am home. 
I had two therapy sessions over the past few weeks. The counselling was to see what support I would need to cope with the emotional side of my illness. 
The outcome of these two sessions were possitive I guess as I have qualified for further sessions with a psycho-therapist. She said that I am not coping well with the Fibro-myalgia. I don't listen to my body, like resting when I need to & asking for help & letting others help when I clearly need help. Yes I know that I am stubborn & prideful ( my close friends & family are always telling me this ), I just don't want to loose my independence. I know they mean well. 
The other being that I won't get to do them with the nice woman that I have connected with. She is a cat lover & spoils her three cats much the same as I do. Her home was a nice relaxing one with cat stuff & cats fussing around. We got along really well as we were similar in our tastes. I felt at home what with the candles,incense burning & the cats dominating the sofas etc. One of her cats was as bad as Dylan, obsessed with water especially with our glasses of water & going to the tap . 
Lordy this has turned into a rant .. The upside of all this is that I have rested more than usuall & have accepted help with things that have become difficult. I just hate that I am dependent on pills & can't do what I want to do. My hands have been really bad this past month. Hence not catching up with blogs ,emails etc, This has taken me ages to write. 
Michael Jackson R.I.P 
I grew up with his music as did many others. He did a lot of good, he made mistakes. God is the judge not man. I leave any judgements to Abba. He knows the sin in our hearts and we are none of us perfect. Let him without sin cast the first stone..
Goodnight & God bless.. 
Angelina
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